Not sure what to title this...

Tomorrow is my surgery. Liposuction of the hips, abs, and "back fat." Am I nervous about being put under? Not sure. It's definitely a serious procedure. Olivia Goldsmith died while having liposuction done on her neck. I think it was something to do with anesthesia (sp?). Good thing I updated my will. lol. Okay, bad joke...but still a valid point. If anyone asks, it's in a manilla folder on the white bookcase in my office.I've been off work since Friday. Actually, Thursday afternoon--we had our Wing picnic and then were released for the day. I was supposed to leave for camping that evening but that little voice inside said "don't go." I didn't question it. I just let my friends know that I couldn't go. It didn't help that Aunt Flo decided to make an appearance as well. Camping and tampons, although they contain many of the same letters, do NOT go together. This weekend especially. Now, this may be TMI but tough!...it's my first red wave since I ceased with the BCPs--a pre-op requirement having to do with clotting or some such thing. The doc told me to stop taking them, I did. It's not like they're doing anything except keeping my skin clear anyway. Oh, and affording me shorter red waves. Normally done in three days, this time it took three days to get momentum. Yuck! I know.So, back to being off since Thursday afternoon. That's a lot of time with just me. Now, don't get me wrong. I enjoy my time by myself but I like doing projects and stuff. Unfortunately, I'm more concious of my spending which makes doing projects more difficult. I did plant some veggies, and watermelon, and some flowers. I've also been eating a ton of junk food--kind of the last supper, I guess. Since weight gain ususally goes to my hips, it kind of works out. :))I also went to the mall. Tried on some cute jeans at Old Navy. Didn't buy them. Why would I? They won't fit in a couple weeks once the swelling goes down. Instead, I look forward to buying them in a smaller size. I wonder if my shape will be drastically different or just smaller. Imagine, having one shape your whole life--for me, that's square hips; you know, where the most weight is carried above the butt rather than at the butt--and then POOF! it's different. I think I'm more nervous about having to deal with a new shape than actually going under. I'm all typed out for now...C ya!