Saturday, May 9, 2009
Wake up call
Yesterday I had a meeting with my Commander in regards to my most recent PT test failure. It's my third in fewer than two years and, even though I'm progressing, it still isn't good. I HAVE to pass my next test which is at the end of June. If I don't pass, they have to submit for retention. If retention is accepted, he has to take punitive steps at his level. Basically, if the Wing Commander doesn't take negative repurcussions, he has to otherwise there is no reason to fear a fourth failure (for anyone). Folks could just keep failing without worrying about anything and without any incentive to pass. My Commander is an awesome guy so I know most of what he's doing/saying is because he has to show that he's serious otherwise he'll be walked all over and not taken seriously. He told me "I don't want you to be the first." I believe him. I know he, and the rest of supervision, value me and what I bring to the organization so I'm going to do what I can and I will pass the test in June. If I don't, I lose a stripe (if the Wing CC approves retention). If I lose a stripe, I will be at high year tenure for that rank which means I can no longer serve. I WILL PASS. Please pray for me that I have the strength and continue to have the determination to pass.